Hey folks. Here we are at week 90! That feels like a really big number, so I thought I should mention it. Usually when I reach a big number like 90, I try to write a real foot stomper. You know, something big and badass to get a lot of attention. For this week I did the exact opposite of that. Today I’ve got this little tune called “Easy,” and when I started writing it I was trying to write the smallest, most gentle tune I could muster. I wanted to write something extremely patient and slow with plenty of space, because after 90 weeks of doing this, one of the things that I have learned is that slow, patient, and space are the hardest things to pull off. It is a lot easier to throw everything you can think of at a song (robots, lazers, guitar solos, double choruses, dance beats etc.), but I really wanted to try and make something small, and dare I dream it, nuanced. That was my challenge this week and I did my best to stick to it.
“Easy” is a tiny little song about guilt, forgiveness, and trying to tap into empathy. It is about being envious of how easy it seems for other people to treat each other well when it seems like all you can do is screw it up. A downer, I know. But sometimes you’ve got to get it out of your system.
Thanks for hanging around for 90 weeks!
I tense before I hit the ground
And feeling better, what's the catch?
Did you ever hope to take me down?
Did you ever catch me in the act?
And seeing them all bright and new
With a million answers calling back
They forgive before you ask them to
What is it within them that you lack?
Should be easy
Easy to care
I swore to you I'd make it back
I wore a hard and practiced smile
And ever since you noticed that
You couldn't look me in the eye
A fear I had when I was young
That I let myself forget in time
The cracks would show to everyone
And if they did what would they find?