This song isn’t about anything recent or current in my life. I thought of the hook, and it seemed right for the song, so I dredged up old feelings of rejection and loss from previous times in my life to get into the right headspace for this tune. This song is about aimlessly fumbling through being rejected. It is about the way that it doesn’t make sense when acceptance seemed like a foregone conclusion. It is about owning up to the reasons for incompatibility and being alright with them. It is about things being so much better in retrospect.
I made a picture of stars to accompany this song because I wanted to make a picture of stars, not because it has anything to do with the song.
This song was a very smooth writing experience. I wrote it on a guitar with five strings tuned all wacky because that’s how James left it. It is his guitar and it is very nice. I fiddled with the guitar part all week, and it never gave me any trouble. So thank you to this song for cooperating and making my life pretty easy.
Scared like a sinner
Heart where I thought it should be
Death to the winter
Good night, you’d say it to me
Gone are the right words
Kinder than this thing ought to be
I would have loved you
If you saw fit to love me
Thinking and struggling’s no good anyway
Obviously missing the right thing to say
Down with the cynics, no love in their hearts
And damn the romantics, can’t tell them apart
Can’t seem to find you
Wooden and speechless all along
Lovely and sullen, can’t you see
I would have gone to you
If you saw fit to come to me
Well I’d’a cut and run if I’d known all the rules
At the top of the Earth staring back down at you
There’s a place in my heart for all the good it would do
If I saw fit to love you