I want to start off by expressing deep sorrow concerning the tragedy that befell Orlando's LGBT community yesterday. Truthfully, I can't comprehend the breadth and depth of this event. Its horror and injustice are so beyond my grasp. Anything I say here inadequately captures how I feel, and the enormity of the pain so many others are experiencing. I often try to use this space to reflect on national tragedies. If this attack were any more comprehensible, I might have penned a tribute as I did after the Boston Marathon attack. This time I don't feel up to the task. I'm so angry about this for so many reasons, and it is piling upon anger that I have been feeling for many months concerning the mounting hatred driving many national conversations. It's bubbling over in me. It's making me feel apart from my better self. This is a much more playful song than I expected to come out of me this week, but I think I needed it. Here is a song that is merely about trying to calm down.
lyrics
You'll find me lately
Kicking at a swarm of bees
Crying indignation
You'll find me
Cursing on the way to work
Judging what you're reading
And all the while
I'll preach of love and being kind
And scoff at nonbelievers
And all the while
I'm picking fights to hide behind
And laughing at the losers
I've got a lot
That I need to work out
I've got this thing I do
Where everyone is wrong but me
A wonder you can stand it
And all the while
My blood is hot and bursting out
So much for credibility
And all the while
The quiet's what I dream about
But I still wake up screaming