This song is about being hard on yourself. It is about the necessity of calling yourself out when you are being too hard on yourself. Much of life can be filled with self doubt, and sometimes it can be easy to put yourself down. For example, this week I found it pretty hard to get motivated to write a song. This happens to me every now and then, which is altogether unsurprising considering that I record a new song every single week. Sometimes I just want to do something else. As the week wore on and I still hadn’t written anything, I began to get down on myself. My reluctance to get started suddenly reflected on everything that I had ever put off in my life. I was pretty sure that I was going to let myself down in a big way by ruining my run of weekly songs. I was reminded of previous failures of all kinds, and I was getting to be sure that I was a pretty big jerk. Then I listened to the thoughts I was having, said a few of them out loud, and upon hearing them I understood that I was completely full of shit. Then I wrote a song and everything was fine! So when you feel like you are probably a really big jerk, and you are sure you are about to fail, I recommend you take a nice big breath and say “I’m so full of shit” and then get on with your life.
Here’s hoping your Monday doesn’t totally suck.
~Jesse
lyrics
Lyrics:
Everywhere I’ve gone is nowhere at all
And everything I’ve done is nothing at all
And everyone I know is doing it all
And look at what I’ve seen, not looking at all
And I’m so full of shit
Do I hear myself?
All the doubt amounts to nothing
And the worry is something I could do without
Just this one time I’m gonna be on my own side
I don’t try hard enough to get anywhere
I never stand up to show that I really care
I don’t really listen, I just sit and I stare
Don’t know what I’m missing because I’m not even there
And I’m so full of shit
Do I hear myself?
All the doubt amounts to nothing
And the worry is something I could do without
Just this one time I’m gonna be on my own side
Just this one time Let me be on my own side