What to say about this one? I'm very much picking up where I left off last week. I'm thinking about my friends, and how one can never be sure when goodbye means goodbye for now, or goodbye forever. I'm thinking about the cold comfort this city has been to me as I've walked miles and miles over its streets in the past week, dodging its scowling, aggressive denizens. I'm thinking about how loss can be thought of as a new color I'm learning to see. It's jarring now, but the older I get, the more clearly I'll see it. Perhaps. I hope. This song is a downer, but I've tried to add a dash of hope. It has to be in there somewhere, or what's the point of singing it? There needs to be a moment of transition, or even transformation; an eye toward some friendlier horizon. Soon, I hope to move on to less dreary fare, but this website is my way of working things out, and right now I am sad and confused. But I am supported, and I'm doing my best to lend support to others. Better days ahead.
lyrics
Over the hillside
Running for cover
You hunt for your dinner
Get thinner and thinner
And sooner or later
The taste of it's bitter
For the rest of the winter
My hands shake as I'm waving goodbye
Over and over
Ask my love to leave on the light
On my way to the corner store
I got into a fight
When a thing ain't how you thought it was
The sting can feel alright
Colder and colder
First snow of the winter
I think of my brothers
How all of us scattered
With a piece of each other
And now living is seeing
In ever more colors
And all of them matter
The wind breaks as I'm saying goodbye
Over and over
Ask my love to leave on a light
On our way to the break of down
I looked into your eyes
And every facet where I thought it was
I drift into the night