I saw the title and opening line of this week’s song scrawled on the wall of a coffee shop bathroom last week. I see lots of things scrawled on bathroom walls, but for whatever reason I took a picture of this one. I think I liked the way the letters in the word “sinking” were following a downward arc, as if they themselves were on the boat. I thought it would be nice to use this line as a springboard for a new song, so that’s what I set out to do this week. I tried to follow my instincts about what the line’s original author might have been reaching for with the boat metaphor. A boat carries people, like friendships and relationships carry people, so if the boat is sinking, perhaps somebody was in the midst of the end of one of those. I put my head in that space, and what came out was kind of mean, but realistically, friendships and relationships rarely end nicely. It actually felt good to write something mean though. Since this song is about somebody else’s friendship or relationship, I didn’t need to hold back for fear of attacking a real person in my life. That’s not to say I haven’t been in this place before. This is a song about trying your best to act nice, when nothing you’re thinking is nice at all.
To my friends and family who have been emailing and texting me to make sure that I’m alive these past several Mondays, I offer the following disclaimer: for the next month and a half or so, expect Mount Everest songs to be posted late on Monday Evening. That takes us through the end of the current semester of my graduate program, and this project just fits best into my life that way for the time being.
I think this boat is sinking
You said it’s not a problem
And you know my time is precious
Especially when I
Decide it’s fine to waste it
And I’ve never been a nice guy
Especially when you
Were sure I was the nice guy
That ain’t me
You should have heard the things that
I’ve thought about you when
You thought you caught me smiling
How about that?